DFA Writes

Mr.Magic January 14, 2008

I lose myself inside of you random moments out of day

And it hurts not to be able to find a way out

I.

Lose.

My.

self,

Inside of you

So where then is my point?

I have lost myself in who you are and you

Are limited to nothing

But burning ash floats from the rage within you

Ash to fill the lungs of your inhabitants with black soot and slow death

I

am one of these inhabitants

and We

are but tiny hands in this place.

Small feet.

Little Toes.

and children are all we should have ever been.

Lifted to the top of my expectation i should leap and fly but i leap and fall

lost

forgotten in the fabric of who you couldnt be

Show me your refuge
Take me to who you should have been
Fill me with your emptiness
and
Tell me

Who you are.

11/2/07 Stream of Conciousness [[[Loose interior monologue]]] November 2, 2007

We were a long time ago
Cutie, cupcake, baby, anything sweet

we were

so
in

…..

We had hopes and dreams together
Now we have hopes and dreams apart

When things began to split down the middle i am not sure
But you are on this side

And I

am on that

We could have been beautiful

But i am depressingly nostalgic

And these months now might as well be years accross continental love that’s lost at sea

Our body crumbles to the floor and melts beneath floor boards

Beneath the surface///

Your surface////

My surface

Right on top our///

My, heart

“I cant wait until…”
“I love you so…”
“Let’s be together for…”
“I miss…”

.Never.

.Leave.

Maybe there just weren’t enough words in my vocabulary…

[[[meant to be spoken and not read….]]]

10/3/07 Pinback-Syracuse October 3, 2007

Lay
Down
Into sand/
Water carries words from tears/
Small
Birds/
Flock to hear/
Tracking Soot
Into our ears…
Cracked air
Heavy lungs/
Pinned our backs
Burned our fears
Took flight
Bound our hearts
To ruins
In ruins
From ruins

I was trying to emulate my favorite band’s lyrics…if you’re interested here is the link to the lyrics for the song..
http://www.lyricsdir.com/pinback-syracuse-lyrics.html

River of Stix September 25, 2007

There was water around her eyes
She laughed and said it just happened

But we knew better

The stream flowed through her mind never allowing her to reach the bend
With the hopes and dreams of a better time on the other side,

I loved her in a way that no one could.

But she was too sad to realize her obsession with mixed up destiny

Pushing me farther from blocking her destination

I held her conscious in my hands

Staring into her dilated pupils screaming into her face

She stared back

Big wet brown eyes

Clouded with failure
Marked with the promise of no future

Closing the doors to desperation

Hers and mine

9-25-07 Writing topic “What is as irrevocable as a haircut?” September 25, 2007

We turned and walked away

Leaving words we couldn’t take back

Words still rose red from the first kiss
Words to smile and think of one another every moment of every day,

If only we had been words…

Your jacket still around my shoulders
Every breath to hold your name

If only we had been words…

Your love running warm to the tips of my fingers
My body still shaped in your mold

If only we had been…

Forever defined by “I love you.”
Written together in books
On walls
In the sky

Sharing letters
phrases
Beginings
and endings////

Together////

If only we had been words…

[[[Omg…i really hate this one now]]]

9-19-07 September 20, 2007

We were cookie cutter lovers

Fresh off the

*Press*

And “meant to be together” was a phrase that circled our heads

I got I love you’s that were no where near good enough

coming from you.

Cause it’s that time of year again and your name wouldn’t make it one day without

“I hate you”

In front of it/////

But when the bed got empty and the couch became full

I claimed,

“I just love you too much for words to express”

When in actuality i just didn’t hate you enough to sleep alone.

And I’m sorry i didn’t care enough to tell you the truth

But lying was so much easier

How i played with your heart and strung you along…

This is the confession of the worse person you’ve ever had the disfortune to meet

The first and last person you’ll ever love

The last person you’ll openly trust

You thought love was a mystery and I made it your mistake