DFA Writes

Reality November 6, 2006

Reality spins

Forcing me into an alternate universe

Where we play Adam and Eve

 By God’s perfect tree

I bare my soul

And you, your heart

We do not speak

Yet so much is said

So much is felt

Nothing can ruin this moment

Never have I cried so happily

Never have I felt so much joyous pain

The thoughts of you leaving me

Makes me die a little inside

And I happily burn

Untitled November 6, 2006

Moments shared words never spoken

Darkness Falls

Lights of past surround me

And I am comforted

Until reality of the present comes back

And I realize

Never again will I be with him

Hair covering my face

Warm hands holding my back

A moment of love surfaces

You are with me and I am with you

That is all that truly matters

In this moment

This space this time

I am free with you

While you are loving me

The air around us is so thick

I can’t seem to hold my breath

Keep my heart beating steady

As I sit in your lap like the baby you claim for me to be

I feel you move against me

And I am scared

Moving with you

Never lifting my head

Never opening my eyes

Not wanting the memories to end

For the first time I am relaxed

I am away

Because I am loved

Colors fade away

Others become nonexistent

And in the end

Its just

you

me

And the love we’ve made in between

She Is November 6, 2006

Taking in a deep breathe, viewing life a new
She is what she always inspired to be
Never wanting to be one that she is not
Knowing that beauty was not only skin deep
But what lies within the heart
So she learns to take in her surroundings
FLoating on a cloud so high no one can tell
Where the ground ends and her imagination begins
She is a girl in love
A girl who views life not only through the eyes of another
But finds a way to view life within herself
A child locked away inside a grown womans soul
She is full of fun and adventure
Has no time for someone trying to cramp her style
Found herself within the sounds of Luther Vandros
“The Closer I Get To You”
And Christina Millian “I’m Gonna Tell Everybody”
She is a woman proud and bold
She has fallen and fallen hard
For living her life to the fullest
And never letting no one
Especially a man
Come between herself and who she is
She is what she always inspired to be

Tired of Tears November 6, 2006

I got tired of crying over you
So I prayed that one day you would cry over me
All you did was appologize
Then when I didn’t respond you said
“Well I’ve appologized, my conscience is clear, and if you wanna hate me thats on you”
Then I cried harder
You never seem to get that your appologies are not enough
I’m so tired of being the only one commited
While you do whatever it is you want to do
And I’m expected to be okay with it
And if I’m not well
Haha thats on me
No You see
I am bigger than this
I will not play second fidle to no chick and no its not okay
Its not okay that you continue to run all over my heart
Its not okay that when I cry you tell me it hurts you
Because if it did you wouldn’t make me cry over and over again
I’m sorry
Do I love you yes
But I will not, can not, should not
Stand by and let you ruin the little bit of me I have left 
 

Fear November 3, 2006

I won’t look you in the eyes

Because I don’t want people to see

How much it hurts inside

It rips me apart from the dephts of my core

To know I am so broken

A woman scorn

Torn from the man she loves

Expected to move on

Forget the past that she loves

But I let you help me pick up the pieces

With the hope of becoming whole once again

No glue

No tape

No attachments

Just you and me

And the false love inbetween